How long does it take for somebody to truly overcome depression? I mean, really truly overcome it? A part of me thinks I’ll always harbor some sort of it no matter what happens in my life. Reason being, it’s something you deal with, not cure. There’s a commercial for an antidepressant I saw when we lived in Missouri that describes it perfectly. ( Edit: Found it on youtube! Link here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGymr78FtbU )
Now, notice how even though the cartoon is taking ‘Abilify’ that the dark little cloud of depression is still with her even at the end of the commercial? That’s how I feel, I manage most days now, but every now and then I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me and I can’t function. I think I need to focus more on dealing with it rather than getting rid of it altogether. Before I moved from Missouri a very bad job experience lead me to seek counseling. She was helpful and just before I stopped going to her she touched on the subject that I was dealing with a severe abandonment issue that happened at some point in my life. Looking back at things, I know I blocked some awful events from my childhood so I wouldn’t have to deal with them. I think I’ll write a little bit about that in my next blog.